whatchamacallit

Even at the most gorgeous points on the outside I am still floating on empty within it's a slew of ups and downs I feel like I'm on drugs it hits like that up and down I am falling when I grasp something and gain control of it I lose something else my brain only clasps on to certain moments and memories everything outside of that is hard to remember this is a small space the world is trying to turn me out I turn in and watch myself I still feel like I have a handful of sanity I suffer from great paranoia

just us

tonight I won't hide from you

I want you to find me

careful(ly)

on second thought don't be

get lost

with me

in me

quietly

submit

to-

you got me

in

our love-

is loud

in dead silence.

my eyes reveal

pain from

pleasure wait

I try to hide

butyoufindmeeverytime

I didn't know.........

I'm

gone and

your

pain inevitably becomes

my satisfaction

and mine; yours

I love it.